Desparate to be, be, be the next best thing.
Reinventing myself in my mind every day.
I need to be the best I can be for her.
The strongest.
Patient, kind, loving.
Just need. to. reach. a bit deeper to find these every second.
Please little one, please realize that all I wanted was to stay here and look into that beautifyl face. and giggle. and hold you when you cry. and eat goldfish.
I did not want to go work for anyone else but you.
oh my sadness. want to hock my ring.